Getting off the Merry Go Round?

Hey

I am really thinking about taking a break.  I have been getting a dimishing reward from my work lately.  Its not that I don't enjoy this show, or the people I am working with, who for the most part are great bunch of people.  Its just that it is not really fulfilling, i am not getting excited about going to work.  I want to be excited by my work! I need to be excited by it.  So I think I need to take time away from stage management.  I need to be sharp to really get work in NYC and I just feel so drained.  I want to do a third season at WV this summer and with the season on tap there I need to be at the top of my game, assuming they want me back.

I want to stay in the business,  my skills are mostly techinical, but I want to start working more on the producing end of production.  I want to be challanged, engaged.  i am looking for a position that allows me to be adaptive, use my mind, my skills, my passions.

So what do I do?

Do I explore other long term employment options outside the business?  Can I make a career change out of the business at this point in my life?  35 is on the horizion.

I don't admit to this often, but I am a little bit afraid of where my life is going, because its not going anywhere near where I want it to, not professionally, not personally

I don't fear the future. I don't want to.  I know something will come up,  something always does for me,  something to get me by.  I have a knack of taking care, getting by. 

I want more.